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On Thursday morning my brother called to tell me his wife had her baby. A brand new baby girl. They didn't find out what they were having, so it was a suprise to us all.
She woke up in labor around 3:30 AM. By 4:30 my brother called his FIL to come over. As labor progressed they decided to call a neighbor to watch their son since she was obviously pretty far along. Lots of pain. When they got to the hospital she begged for an epidural and was told it was too late...it she was complete. So, 20 minutes later she had her baby in her arms. A total of 3 1/2 hour labor and 3 pushes.
When I hung up the phone I immediately burst into tears. I was overcome with emotion. I was so happy for them. And I was so happy they got the daughter they wanted. And believe me...I am very excied to have another niece. And this is my mother's only granddaughter. So, I happy for that as well.
Still...I was sad. Sad for the birth I will never have, or the daughter I will never have. I was also sad that I won't have any more babies. What does that mean? Does it mean I want another child? Or am I just mourning the loss? The loss of the birth I will never have, as both of mine were born via c-sections. Or am I just sad that that part of my life is over?
